Lack of Sleep, Thesis Complaining Tiredness Z_Z

I have been up for 24 hours now. No, I am not on an airplane or traveling across the International date line. I am trying to get use to changing of my body-clock. My body-clock has been positioned and stuck in the night shift mode, it basically means I get up at 5:00p.m. and I go to bed at 8 a.m.. This has been my crazy thesis writing life, starting a couple weeks before mid-terms. I am trying to break that habit and try to live a normal life once again as my thesis defense approaches in less than two days. @_@. It just happens that I am the very first person in a line of about four. I am actually happy about that because I can...mmmm what's the phrase????..."Lower the bar!" <--I hope I do well, so many people have helped me get this done along with hearing my constant complaining about my lack of direction. Yes, Thank you, you know who you are! ^_~

I am hoping to stay up for another five hours, but time has been going really slow today. WHY???? I mean, yes, I want more time to work on my defense's ppt and practice, but at the same time I would like to go to bed. Oh, the predicament I am in! Life, it is definitely a __________________. (You fill-in the blank too tired to actually be philosophical, hee hee).

All I know is that I am very happy about a certain couple that hasn't seen each other in a long time. Their love is overflowing in this picture and should represent no matter how much life wears us down, we remain durable and double-ply.

The Finish Line Still Isn't In Sight!

Today has been one of those days...will it continue??

You would think by the end of November I would feel confident in my thesis and looking forward to being finished by the end of January, but only having 2 months left....I am no where near my goal. Is it really possible? I have a feeling I will be stuck here another semester. Yes, I used the words 'stuck here' that is how much I feel about staying. It is winter, my least favorite season, in which I am depressed and having the lack of sunshine in my life really affects me.

I feel really lost and confused the majority of the time. What is my problem? Am I that stupid? Other people around me already have their defense dates and booking his/her tickets home. I still don't have a solid thesis statement or even a page written. My thesis would be super awesome if I knew what the h3** I was doing. I have researched and researched. Today, one of my classmates told me to change my topic. SERIOUSLY, is that the cure for everything? I would still be lost if I changed my topic, but at least I know a lot of about this topic even if it isn't relevant to the actual material that is going to be in my future-written thesis. I think I am screwed either way. If I stay another semester, I will disappoint a lot of peeps and I don't want to do that, but I am failing here...just plain failing. TT_TT!

The finish line still isn't in sight and I am not sure when it will be.
T_T Sooooooo Very Sorry Bubba T_T

I can do this!

I can do this.
I can do this because of your support.
I can do this because I need to get this done.

I need to get this done.
I need to go where my heart is.
I need my Bubba, I am going to get my Bubba!

This thesis is driving me crazy! @_@ I can't wait until this is done. I have to finish it before January 31st and I just pray to Kami-sama that it will be finished. I feel like my life is being stressfully delayed because of it. I am soo grateful to have people in my life that bring happiness when all I see are rain clouds. My life is better because of them and I am not sure I could stand it here without their presence! So, thank you to the few people in my life that make my life truly blessed, you know who you are....Thank you from the bottom of my heart!!!
I know I haven't been the same happy jolly person this semester and it is all because of this stupid thesis!!! I know that when this is done, a lot of weight will be lifted off my shoulders and I will shine that much brighter. Until that day....I will be strong and I will endure this fight. I will get this done because my happiness depends on it. Plus, my Bubba is depending on me to get it done! I can't let him down!!!

Thank you all for your love and support. Those few who are getting on my nerves and are adding to my stress levels....leave me alone!!! Other than that...FIGHT-O!!! ^_^

Little Piggies

The little things that mi Bubba does to cheer me up!!! I love you so much and I can't wait to have you in my arms once again. Kisses xxxxxX ^_^ X

Thank You.

I am almost done! It is hard to believe that I will be going home a week from today! I can't express how happy I am thinking about going home and seeing the people I love. I get to see my family, the love of my life, and not have to worry about case studies, papers, group projects, etc. Don't get me wrong I do like it here in Taiwan, it is just that I miss mi Bubba ~I can't truly be satisfied unless I have him by my side. There are so many adventures that I have had here in Taiwan, mostly within the area of school because getting an MBA is quite a lot of work. I have met so many wonderful people and I am truly honored to have met them. There are a few people that have made an impact in my life here in Taiwan and without you I am certain that I couldn't have survived without your support, you know who you are, thank you from the bottom of my heart. I know that I am coming back to Taiwan in September, but I just wanted to say my thanks before I went home.

Thank You. Thank You. Thank you.

Lessons from Geese

Just thought this was interesting ^_^ :

Fact 1: As each goose flaps its wings, it creates an "uplift" for the birds that follow. By flying in a "V" formation, the whole flock adds 71% greater flying range than if each bird flew alone.
Lesson: People who share a common direction and sense of community can get where they are going quicker and easier because they are traveling on the thrust of each other.

Fact 2: When a goose falls out of formation, it suddenly feels the drag and resistance of flying alone. It quickly moves back into formation to take advantage of the lifting power of the bird immediately in front of it.
Lesson: If we have as much sense as a goose, we stay in formation with those headed where we want to go. We are willing to accept their help and give our help to others.

Fact 3: When the lead bird tires, it rotates back into the formation to take advantage of the lifting power of the bird immediately in front of it.
Lesson: It pays to take turns doing the hard tasks and sharing leadership. As with geese, people are interdependent on each other's skills, capabilities, and unique arrangements of gifts, talents, or resources.

Fact 4: The geese flying in formation honk to encourage those up front to keep up their speed.
Lesson: We need to make sure our honking is encouraging. In groups where there is encouragement, the production is much greater. The power of encouragement (to stand by one's heart or core values and to encourage the heart and core values of others) is the quality of honking we seek.

Fact 5: When a goose gets sick, wounded, or shot down, two geese drop out of formation and follow it down to help and protect it. They stay with it until it dies or is able to fly again. Then, they launch out with another formation or catch up with the flock.
Lesson: If we have as much sense of geese, we will stand by each other in difficult times as well as when we're strong.

"Lessons From Geese was transcribed from a speech given by Angeles Arrien at the 1991 Organizational Development Network and was based on the work of Milton Olson. It circulated to Outward Bound staff throughout the United States. It's interesting what we can learn from nature."

Happy 3rd Anniversary!

I have found the man who calls me beautiful instead of hot (unless it is appropriate ~wink), who calls me back when I hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to my heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch me sleep... I have waited for the man who kisses my forehead, who wants to show me off to the world when I am in sweats, who holds my hand in front of his friends, who thinks I'm just as pretty without makeup on. He is constantly reminding me of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have me....He is the one who turns to his friends and says, 'that's her.' He is my Davey.

I LOVE YOU A LOT, Mi Davey ^_^ I really don't care who reads this and knows because you are a big part of my life, without you my life is incomplete. Thank you for making my life complete and giving me sunshine everyday. Happy 3rd Anniversary. Looking forward to next year, in which we can celebrate it together. I love you. DaiSuki. XXX